Lost and Found

I am still lost in the fields of opportunity
I got this feeling someone from the other side waits for me
Why don't I hear Him?
Or is that He stays silent?
Am I surrounded by things that deflect me?
Am I on the crossroads to take a new path?

The questions keep burgeoning amidst isolation
Basking in the eyes of apathetic World
I still wonder "Have I made my mark yet?"
Am I lost in the pursuit of happiness?
Or Is it rather satisfaction I look for?
Or is it rather my temple whims to uncalled necessity?
My nerves get hold of me when my cup is bleeding
The cup I have been holding for a while.

There is a layer of invisibility over me
I do not see what is in front of me
I do not thank Him for what He giveth me
Why is that I have changed?
Why is that I keep walking in this deadly road?
Am I too meticulous in my living? Should I?

My Savior is right here
I should grab His hands and I should thank Him
His greatness is beyond interpretation
For He has given me all I need
I know and yet ignore that He can gift me anything
In His presence my cup would overflow with joy and love
I should open my eyes and see His grace in its exuberance
I was never lost because I was always found!!!

Eagerly waiting for my ride :)

Not a month from now will God give me the privilege to drive my own car. Today I recollect my childhood days when my parents eagerly wanted to have one of the small family car.
We owned only a scooter, Lohia LML Vespa back then, which could hardly carry more than two normal sized humans. We missed our church as a family because it would be either dad or me with my sister or dad with mom. We had to travel around more than 20 kms to other city end. Travelling by scooter became a difficulty then. My dad did not have the income to buy a car. He could still opt for a loan but then we would have to strive hard every day for our daily expenses like tuition fees and school fees. One fine day we thought of going for a second-hand car. We checked in the market and the two options we found apt was Maruti 800 and Premier Fiat Padmini. We finally preferred the former and the required amount was around Rs 40k.
Some or the other way in about couple of months we made it to Rs 40k as savings in our back. One of my mom's brother too helped financially but it was late. The car had slipped out of our hands. It was then owned by another needy in the market. Somehow we gave up the hope of buying a new or used car. Then years passed. I was in my pre-college life when we bought our new two wheeler, Honda Activa. By the time we shifted to Kerala, our native, we had to sell our old scooter.
Now again years passed by and today God has helped me get to a position where I can get a new car for our family. I eagerly wait for the day when I take my family in a car and we go for a really long trip. I wait eagerly to see the smile on my mother's face. Why I specially write this here is because between the period when we had our Vespa and Activa, what we saw in other's eyes was mere sympathy 'Oh they are poor... they don't own a car.... oh pity they need to travel by auto..'. Well I always thought over it whether do I really need to buy a car? Should I buy to prove to this people? My answer was Yes perhaps not for these reasons but because my family really needs one. What if my parents require an immediate medical attention? What if we have to visit a relative's wedding? What if it is raining and our family has to be at some place?
Today at the moment my family stands, there would be none to help us save God. God himself says he helps those who help themselves. He made me able to help myself so I do realize it is time. If all goes fine I would write my next article after I have my ride :)

God is great!!!

Be a human

Good thoughts are worse when dialogue does not follow,

For good thoughts seeds expectation and hurts when left unspoken.

True words are worse when act does not follow,

For true words cast into lies if deeds do not spring in its trail.

It is easy even for the eunuchs to boast fake stories,

But real men encounter the zeal of war.

Manliness is not in overthrowing the others,

Name it Ego as it always blinds the Fools.

Be a Man and be a human,

For this planet is not yours alone.

Heavens and Gods have split you into two

Seek your half or you are forever gone.

He who is oblivious to love has place among the beasts,

Rather rip out thy heart and lay waste to heap.

Aye the sufferers walk away with pride,

They were never meant to be yours.

Two white Devils - Chapter II

Every Man on this Earth has his own definition of Beauty. Beauty to me, as to most other humans, was that which pleases my eyes, though being aware of the fact that beauty lies in the mind too and not only in the body. Peradventure some real life experiences was to occur to fail my philosophy.

This chapter was neither too short nor too long because it happened two times in my life and this being the second one. In recent times, I came across one Devil. She wore the perfect camouflage, beautiful enough to fall any youth. She was as white as snow. There was faint pink tinge on her chin and cheek. Her eyes were like glistening pearls, though black, added the beauty to her face.  Her countenance was strong enough to keep any eyes vexed upon her. I desired, just as anyone else, to share some words with her but did not want to be deliberate. I wished if it happens let it be in God’s will.

It was not much late when the hour finally arrived. One Friday in return to my shelter an unexpected twist fabricated a couple hours of vicinity with the Devil, that time I marked her as an Angel, yes we do blind ourselves in illusions (smiles). We talked, laughed, teased and did all that our little minds could play. My liking grew stronger each day and grew bolder by every confab. I felt I had found the perfect girl in my life as I found her saying she follows God in her life. But soon Fate intervened and drifted me apart from her shadows. The sole reason that she would not be comfortable leaving behind her practises of worship. Saddening it was indeed as now it was no more colour, race or religion that pushed me away but human practises in Christianity. Her reasons shaped as a request not to pull her in my life when my mind thought about it otherwise. I placed her addiction above my will. I let her go but kept whispering and testifying my genuine love for her. Why did it happen after all? Who would be happier now? Why is my heart being played with?

Well it was all a matter of time I would receive the answers to my questions. After a period of half year, the Devil had morphed herself into her true image.  She had now forgotten what chorus she had sung to push me away. She had now fallen in her words and belief and leapt towards a non-believer. I feel sympathy for her parents who wish a beautiful life for her and still stick to their words but where had her consciousness gone? Had her conscience succumbed to the odd world? What place remains to the living God in her life? She once said, “I am working in life to be a good angel like my father”, yet now she shames him. I take a sigh of life for my life would have been endangered with such a vicious half for the rest of my life. Thanking you God, You truly hold fast and never let me fall. 

The cost of living rich is high

In the common eyes this might be very plain. If you have to live like rich people then first you have to become rich but that is not all. If one believes that one is rich only if he or she has money then he is utterly mistaken. To human eyes being rich is what they see on the tip of an iceberg but beneath the surface is a strong bowl of relationships and senses that upholds the iceberg.
Richness is not purely possessing your needs but in sharing your needs. It is not stacking your bin but emptying it. It is not yourself lonely among the dead but accompaniment among the living.
Stay rich stay happy.

Tere Bina - HEROPANTI ( Guitar chords) Mustafa Zahid

Tere Bina

Movie : Heropanti [2014]

Capo on 1^st Fret

Strumming : A, F#m, D , EMaj

A

Ek khoya khoya chaand tha
D

Jo tha khafa khafa
F#m

Ek toota toota khwaab tha
D

Jo tujhse tha juda
A                   

Ik aadhi aadhi aas thi
EMaj

Jo poori ho gayi
Bm

Tum mill gaye to jaane kyun ye
EMaj      

Doori ho gayi

A             D
Piya laage na

A             D
Jiya laage na

EMaj              F#m

Tere bina Tere bina

EMaj              A

Tere bina Tere bina

A

Ho aadhi adhoori
F#m

Iss dastaan mein
F#m              Bm

Kaise koi rang laaye
EMaj                 A

Kaise koi muskuraaye

A                        F#m

Itne ghamon mein do pal khushi ke
F#m                  Bm

Kaise bhala yaad aayein

EMaj                   A
Tumko bhula naa paayein

A

Ik pyaasi pyaasi boond mein
D

Jo mann mera jalaa

F#m
Har lamha lamha teri hi
D

Yaadon se tha ye bhara
A

Ik aadhi aadhi aas thi
EMaj

Jo poori ho gayi
Bm

Tum mill gaye toh jaane kyun ye
EMaj

Doori ho gayi

A             D
Piya laage na

A             D
Jiya laage na

EMaj              F#m

Tere bina Tere bina

EMaj              A

Tere bina Tere bina

EMaj              F#m

Tere bina Tere bina

EMaj              A

Tere bina Tere bina

Are marriages really made in Heaven?

Perhaps this is something which a married person should be writing but I thought to jot down my views on it and maybe read it some years later when I am married, on God's will. We humans have always categorized marriages into love marriages and arranged marriages. In some cases there exist arranged-cum-love marriages.

Basically marriages involve three stages. Spiritual Unity, Physical Acceptance and Mental Likeness are the three stages that encompass a married life. Whatever we can think about the events or situations, they can be pulled into one of them and we might also have witnessed failure in any of them leading to divorce. Before I draw the sequential structure with the three stages in Love marriage and Arranged marriage, let me describe what the three stages actually are.
     The first one of them being Physical Acceptance. It is one of the strongest factors that initiate something called 'Relationship' excluding blood relations (the relationship in current context refers to friendship, acquaintance, affair or marriage). Humans always have this factor tingling in their mind, perhaps it is a natural phenomenon in the human brain to get attracted to someone or something looking good and the eyes are the most catalyzing tool for this reaction. So physical acceptance does not simply and exclusively mean sexual attraction. It is but its also the post-phase of physical acceptance (marriage or affair). In a married relationship, physical acceptance is one accepting the other as a part of his/her body.
    Mental likeness is self-explaining, something that is linked to mind or thought process. Opinion, thoughts, philosophies, deeds, etc., are all elements of this stage. I feel this is more linked to your soul. Mental likeness clings to both worldly and non-worldly matters.
    Spiritual Unity is the belief and submission of one's spirit to another person in relationship with God. If I say a Hindu boy and a Christian girl are spiritually united then I am wrong unless they worship one God. If I say a husband and wife are both Christians, but one practices Catholic and the other practices orthodox, or any other man made sub-caste you name, they are still not spiritually united because they both aren't united in their mode of worship. Both have to be one in belief, practice and worship in relationship with the one God.
     Now marriage is a magical journey in which two travelers have decided that they gonna stick together in every situation, be it odd or even, be it harmonizing or aggravating. If we align the three stages in a particular order, they form Love marriage and Arranged marriage. According to me, Love marriage is when the Physical Acceptance acts first, followed by the Mental likeness and then least followed by the Spiritual Unity whereas Arranged Marriage is where Mental Likeness or Spiritual Unity acts first followed by Physical Acceptance.
Now, in order to attain a blessed life, speaking in the context of life in union with God, it is very important that Spiritual Unity comes in front. It's a truth that today in every marriage individuals are attracted to each other on elements that fade with age rather than the element which should grow by age. I would never like to convey my readers that Love marriage is unsuccessful or arranged marriage is the better. It varies from couples to couples, Keep the importance of spiritual growth as husband and wives which will let them respect each other more.
When one hand fails to do it alone, involuntarily the other hand comes and joins. When one eye cannot perceive the vision, the other struggles harder to sustain it.