Cry of a mother...

It is Friday May 4th 2012 and am back to my home.My mom is so damn happy to see me. After one week she gets to see me. I can feel the creepiness in her eyes. The feeling to drown me in her LOVE and CARE. This creepiness is from the depth of motherhood.
    After some time I sit for prayer with her and that is the moment I fear 'cause I know she will burst out with tears. She cries hard when she prays for her daughter who resides away from her and her heart longs to be with her daughter. In the next few minutes I wish my ears to close as her cry is worse than the crying baby taken away from his mother. Tears fill in my eyes and my ears bleed. My chest pains and I just don't wanna listen her cry. I too pray for my didi. I just pray she is blessed with a man who can take care of her and keep her happy. Her smile is simply gorgeous. God! how precious is her smile. Wouldn't You shower Your blessings on her???
   Now when I long to gift her with the best girl, I seem to be lost. For I am not certain whether how fare would I do it. I want to gift you with a girl who would love you and respect you more than me. I have always wanted that the girl whom I would marry should realize what I have for you, my mother.
                         Mamma, I remember you saying that you cried and for me to come into your life and that really means God will be with me in whatever I do for you. Mummy I do love you a lot but I do not know what will happen with my life and what I will do for you. When I see myself getting lost, myself getting drowned in the ocean I had, it is damn more painful and I see things which might only bring tears in your eyes. I will put here what vision I saw.
    You remember mom, in Orissa when we went for a prayer gathering at Jhirpani a pastor had called out that I will follow God in my very youth. Mummy! I see this coming. I tried to find my love, my partner. I failed couple of times when I could really see what they were but this was not the end. Mummy, I found my true love. For in her I could see myself. Mummy, I realized that she is the one but mummy this was again not the end. Mummy I was left behind. My everything is being taken. My breathe, my love and my touch of passion is being taken. I now feel that God is showing me something. A painful but rejoicing in God service. I feel like He wants to show that I ain't normal. I am not supposed to unite. I have to be alone. Mummy, I have felt this many times before. He wants me to serve Him. Mummy, I just pray if this turns out to be the reality you please accept me. If not I only wish you get to read this one day. God will make you read this. Till then I am here with you mom.

Song of first day

Its first of May and You are away.
I ain't looking anywhere, my heart just sways,
Thirsty for each moment to look into those eyes,
How hard it was for me to bid you goodbyes.

With every single word that I told you,
Hoping you'd feel the slightest of something new,
Even my absence shall keep you safe,
The paths won't be faint though they lie amidst the dew.

No more do I hear the birds chirping,
No more do I see the Sun rise above the hills,
Coz they are signs showing me that,
It's gonna be another day without you.

What would I have done if Music wasn't there in my life ?

Living in this world is not at all easy, especially when you do not meet the expectations of people around you. We can clearly see different people with variety lifestyles. Here I would like to mention some of the lifestyles I have witnessed.
I belong to somewhat to a middle class family. Such are families that dream upper class and live low class. Damn funny. Well I was born in such a family and there is no hiding. Similar like other middle class families, there has been ups and downs. I hate the downs coz they are peace killing instances. I have always dreamed big, quite becoz am ambitious and it is very difficult to keep dreaming big when you do not find it ever happening in reality.
But now I truly realize that God has really blessed me in many ways. I faced this reality when I fell in a conversation with one of my colleagues. It was never easy for me to believe that I was blessed and many a times I cried and whispered to my own mind that I am a loser. Today I have buried that deep below my thoughts, I crushed it and the pieces remains inside, maybe they may come up again tomorrow or the next moment. Now why did I pose a question "What would I have done if Music wasn't there in my life ?" You may not find the answer to this question fitting my written context but gladly it does....
As I said when felt the downs, it really used to hurt me. I have felt that I am weak and alone. Why this all happened is because I kept dreaming big and ideally they were worldly things that used to pull me and make me fight for what was not all relevant and necessary. I somehow discovered that the best to keep myself away from getting myself drown in useless thoughts was to deviate my mind and keep it busy. Dream starts with your imagination and imagination starts with your thoughts and all that thought needs is your five senses.
I found music as the only thing that could keep my imagination away from the undesired thoughts. Music took me to a different world and you know what, it is real fun.
I am a person who loves good music, I do not go for the lyrics most of the times. It is the tune that swings our mind at different thought frequencies. Omg! I sound so crazy. One who listens to all kinds of music can know better what I mean to say.
I dance, I cry, I sleep and I live the music. It is a different world there, far better than what is around me.

Solving problems using 5 WHY technique

The technique was originally developed by Sakichi Toyoda and was later used within Toyota Motor Corporation.

The 5 WHY is a technique where we get to the root of a problem when we have asked 5 questions in a chained manner.
   For example, suppose a student faces an issue "I reach school daily very lately". Now if the student wants to analyse why this happens. The first question can be "Why I reach late?" , to which the answer would be "Because I depart from home late."
The next question to this would be "Why I depart from late?" . The answer to this now varies. "Because I get up late" or "Because I take a lot of time in getting dressed" or "Because I execute some activity in morning before departure".
So in this way one can continue questioning the evolving answers and is believed that by the fifth question is asked, one gets to the real cause of the problem. It is not necessary that five questions have to be asked. It can be lesser than that also. If you are unable to get questions  or are not able to reach the root cause then it simply means you aren't giving the right answer to the earlier asked question or you aren't asking the right questions to the evolving answers.

This technique can be applied any where or any environment where an individual or group is stuck with problem or blocker. I have also felt that through the course of questioning one can create or obtain newer ways of doing things.
I have not started applying this to big problems but I have rather started exercising this in smaller issues so that I can really understand how to create the right questions.

Time 4 Muzik ---- Part 2

This article is on my view about sound/ audio/ music. For us people who can hear, we are surrounded by sounds. We use the term noise in physics for sound that is impure. So in reality, we are most of the time surrounded by noises because noise is more often unpredictable. We are bound to hear these noises until we close our ears with hands or cotton stuffed. Before going into details, I would like to mention something on the five senses we have.


Our five senses, we are aware, are vision, smell, taste, hear and touch.

• We can block vision if we close our eyes or place something opaque very close to eyes.
• We can block smelling if we cover our nose or stop breathing (of course for few moments until you don’t suffocate to death  )
• We do not taste unless we can place the stuff on our tongue.
• We can block hearing, as mentioned before, if we close our ears.
• Finally, we cannot feel anything if we do not come in contact with the object or entity.

What I tried to mention here is that we at least one or another way of blocking the senses. When it comes to audibility we are bound to hear noises or sounds all the time we are awake.

Some people love to dance but helplessly don’t have the talent, some love to sing but there also lack the talent to sing in the right tune or chord. Even though every person do not like to see dance, every person does like to hear music and this music will be of individual taste. You understood what I meant. I am very sure there will be a music which would be liked by everyone because there might be a tune which strikes the brain chords.

Onam at EY --2011

These are few pics I took from my new Cam... Njoi...

Thinking out of the box-----PART 1

Many a times have we heard this phrase "Thinking out of the box..." . Literally this phrase means to think differently. The notion of something outside a perceived "box" is related to a traditional topographical puzzle called the nine dots puzzle.

The Nine dots puzzle >>
The puzzle proposed an intellectual challenge—to connect the dots by drawing four straight, continuous lines that pass through each of the nine dots, and never lifting the pencil from the paper.


The phrase "thinking outside the box" is a restatement of the solution strategy. The puzzle only seems difficult because we imagine a boundary around the edge of the dot array. Hence the solution is provided in the comments.
For a Tester: The job of a tester is to think about every possible outcome of a software to every possible input to it. By thinking out of the box, a tester can perform better and discover more number of defects either in the requirement review stage (static testing) or during testing the software (dynamic testing).
Before going into much depth, I would like to share with you few amazing facts about our human brain that most of us are yet unaware of, after all that is where we start thinking.




· Every time you recall a memory or have a new thought, you are creating a new connection in your brain.
· Laughing at a joke at is no simple task as it requires activity in five different areas of the brain
· The average number of thoughts that humans are believed to experience each day is 70,000
· Juggling has shown to change the brain in as little as seven days. The study indicates that learning new things helps the brain to change very quickly.
· Yawns wake up the brain- Yawning expands our pharynx and larynx, allowing large amounts of air to pass into our lungs; oxygen then enters our blood, making us more alert.
· Music lessons have shown to considerably boost brain organization and ability in both children and adults.
· Your brain comes out to play at night: You’d think that your brain is more active during the day, when the rest of your body is. But it’s not. Your brain is more active when you sleep.
· Your brain can store everything: Technically, your brain has the capacity to store everything you experience, see, read or hear. However, the real issue is recall — whether you can access that information.
· Read aloud. Parents and teachers who read aloud and talk often to young children are promoting brain development
Don’t you feel now more confident knowing that your brain functions so powerful? These are common facts about human brain. Initially when you read through the article, a question might have provoked in your brain “How can I think out of the box?” Well I have the answer to your questions and we shall see that in Part-2.