God is the answer

Just couple of days back I got to realize that when we humans think that something wrong has happened to us or some injustice been done on us then we really need to have faith on God that He never lets His children  fall down or be wronged without a purpose.
I have always felt this but never believed that whatever wrong happens to us, at that moment we feel we are the worst in the world but dear readers it is not so. We humans can only see a distance ahead of us in life. We make so many plannings, so many wishes to come true but when they fail we utterly loose hope in God but the right thing is that if something bad has happened with you, if you think so, it has happened for something much better to happen in you life. Dear readers, we , mere earthlings , can only look at life with the power of Present but with no power of the Next Instant ( or say immediate Future). We are so weak and  yet we have big Dreams, uncertain of what is to come. I assure you all that just rest you hopes unto God, He will always be by your side and do not worry at any wrong that happens with you, maybe you loose someone very close to you which you never expected. God knows what is the priority in our life that will make our life much more beautiful.

TO GOD ALONE BE THE GLORY 
TO GOD ALONE BE THE PRAISE!!!

Once in a while you feel weak

I am travelling a train with people in all age groups and among them do travel boys of my age. For past few months I have been more concerned about my health and that too my fitness. Yes I am weak and thin. I am not normal, unlike the guys who have normal chest size or wrist size. I come nearly to their half. In my mind then it starts working out my fantasies of going to gym and exercise or workout so that I too look normal.           

                   Well I myself don't know why I have started this calculations or comparision. Yeah the world isn't safe or I say normal for people like me to survive. I know I am being judged by the way I look and I am  a person who personally don't do that. I have always been a lover of heart and not a lover of skin. I myself do not know whether should I make any attempt to change my looks but I just wanna try. I do not expect changes in people's thought about me but I wanna make my life normal. We do go tired trying to run away from such comparision and calculations. Trying to hide some truth in your looks like as if you got less hair or your wrists or hands look thin or you shoulders aren't manly or you got strange sized ears or over-sized belly. We try to hide this things from others.

                 There are two things that do happen at this time. You do feel weak. By saying weak what I mean to say is the feeling when you feel that you are a step or steps away from being normal. The second thing we should be doing is that we should stay confident that I AM ONE IN A MILLION. I am unique and I know that damn well. Let the first feeling be there becoz its gonna keep me down to earth and live the second feeling becoz you gonna need a soul to fight back this nasty world!!! :)

How to take up an unbearable loss

Nimmi.. a person I came across in my life. She is my close friend and was an ex-colleague at my present company. She moved to another company to grow her carrier. Well, she is of my same age somewhat, has a younger brother who is now studying and got a semester to complete. Her mother is a working lady, as far as I have heard she works in a hospital.
           Today just like the other days, I get dressed up in my best dress to office. Trying to look good and the next day is our team outing. All is going good and fair. I reach my office and move to one of my friend's bay. I have a couple of gossips and chat. My friends ask out for a treat as I am likely to get performance bonus. I agree and walkaway to my cube. Tis 9:45am and I move to my bay to take up work.
I reach my seat and just as I have a stable position, my friend Lijo from behind tells me ,
"Da... Nimmi's father is no more...."
" what!! but how??", I am shocked
"He had a heart attack.. not much details clear to us..This was told to Kannan".
            I sit there shocked and trying to realize what is really happening, to realize the truth that my dear Nimmi is facing a loss. The loss she suffered was her father. Her moral support and her idol.
The day goes by and I plan to get to Nimmi by evening along with Lijo and another colleague of us. We leave the office at 5pm and reach her house by 6:30pm. There, I meet Nimmi after couple of months.
Her eyes with tired eyes of weeping. She was not in her best dress. She was lost in a world of brutal reality that she has lost her father. Her mother was laying on bed in the bedroom which was visible from the place we were sitting. Nimmi asked whether we would like to talk to her. We refused, rather we suggested her to take rest. After few minutes we hear Nimmi's mom crying badly. I don't have words to explain that. I just wished to run out of there somehow but I wanted to console Nimmi. I wanted to talk to her personally which I couldn't do. We returned back.
All the way back I just asked myself, "What wrong hath she done, the person so innocent I knew to be, that she hath to take this loss?"
There is only one universal truth, "It is God's will to giveth and taketh life... We are born with a purpose, when our purpose is served then tis of no more importance..."

The song I play now on my guitar....

The song I am singing now on my guitar is 'Pani Da' from the movie Viicky Donor which I feel is very much attached to my life.... here is the song 

Pani da rang vekh ke
Akhiyaan cho anju rul de
Maahiya na aaya mera, maahiya na aaya
Maahiya na aaya mera, maahiya na aaya
Ranjhana na aaya mera, maahiya na aaya
Maahiya na aaya mera, ranjhana na aaya
Akhaan da noor vekh ke
Akhaan da noor vekh ke
Akhiyaan cho anju rul de

Kamli ho gayi tere bina aaja ranjhan mere
Baarish barkha sab kuch beh gayi, aaya nahi jind mere
Akhaan da noor vekh ke
Akhiyaan cho anju rul de

Kotthe utte beh ke akhiyaan milaunde
Na jaana main tu kabhi chhod
Tere utte marda, pyaar tenu karda
Milega tujhe na koi aur
Tu bhi aa sabko chhod ke
Tu bhi aa sabko chhod ke
Meri akhiyaan cho anju rul de
Akhiyaan cho anju rul de

Pani da rang vekh ke
Akhiyaan cho anju rul de..

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The meaning"Pani da" meaning