Few moments in God's lap..

This Sunday, i.e., yesterday, was special for me. Perhaps it was not the first time that I had attended the church as a deacon.
It was an English service at church yesterday, as it was the fifth Sunday of the month. I read the epistle Romans 5:11-16 and then continued with rest of the service. At the end when the curtain was closed, I knelt before the holy altar. It was such a great feeling and it was as if sitting in the lap of God.
Every firth Sunday reminds me that am I living right. Now shouldn't I be thinking about this everyday or every Sunday. Well maybe, No! Because on every fifth Sunday I am standing inside the altar and one needs to be fit for it and I am not.
Well I just hope I change soon....

New Spark

Ha!! it is September.. :) and it was July the last time i wrote my post here. I was never sure I would come here again, write any more painful words and I never ever will.
Guess, this title means the same. One who has read my previous posts here might think am in love again but this is right. I am in love and it is more deeper. I love my all time friend, who pulled me out of my world of fantasy which was me surrounded by dark shadows.
Moving on, this month I faced another test. I knew very well this gonna happen. A girl with dark round mesmerizing eyes appears. It seems to have some sort of strong power. And I think again, questioning myself "Should I repeat this again?" and the answer was plainly "No!". I cant take any more pain. Am only looking eagerly at those stars that lit my sky in the nights. So beautiful were they and now its gone. All these were pure illusions I made up for myself.
And Satan, however strong you are gonna tempt me , you are gonna fail. Not again. This is my new life with new victories I have already achieved which I thought I would get earlier by the dark angel. Satan, even if your dark angel pulled me down, today a fair white angel from God has saved me. I am proud to be pure today. :)

The blog is not gonna stop because of some crap happen in my past. It was my past and will always be. Few touch and memorables remain and those gonna burn. I wont hate my past and I cant becoz I am gonna stick to ma principles. :) See ya soon back :)